sighhhhhhhhh

Today I went shopping and I just lost interest. I kept thinking to myself if I buy these.. Where am i going to wear them to? Will I even need winter clothes next time? Dont even know if i can stay here.

I really want to try to be positive like i have been last year but it's so hard. I'm still paying for my house in bendigo, as if I have any more money to spare. Paying for something I am not using. Arghhhh I hate that feeling. Wasting money on something i hate now. New housemate about to move in. Feeling displaced. Feeling like i can't do anything. I really need that job. No job means I dont know where I'll be at. I can't make plans.

It's saturday night and i feel so lonely. I hate this feeling. Mark asked if i wanted him to stay back to be with me. But i didn't want to be the girlfren that stopped him from going out with his friends.